• @MJBrune@beehaw.org
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      52 years ago

      It’s only happened twice so far. About once every ten years. Only 2 so far, both freak accidents. One died a few days after his wedding due to sleep apnea when he was 34. I started getting the feeling around the start of the year and he died at the start of July. The other one died when he was 41 and decided to try to jump from his second-story balcony while drunk, slipped, and landed on his head. I got the feeling probably around September 2020 He died in August 2021.

      I will say I do get other feelings when something bad is happening. I went to a play when I was about 8 and felt a sense of doom the whole time. Came home to realize we’d be robbed, me specifically, by one of my friends. I specifically remember thinking “Something is going on at the house, it’s on fire or something.” They left everything else alone except my room. Again, a sense of doom when I got robbed again at daycare when a bunch of people stole a bunch of stuff from the classroom we were in.

      So I had this sense of doom throughout my childhood when something serious was happening but I had not felt it in my adult life until the first death. I don’t think it’s supernatural or anything. Likely confirmation bias. I’ve never had a sense of doom without something bad happening but I have felt afraid in the moment. Perhaps your brain does something to your memories once you have moments of fear of something happening to have that thing happen. Kind of like underlining it. Some sort of survival instinct to listen to certain types of fear more.